Freitag, September 30, 2016

coming nearer to the 50 mark and thinking

Wow has this been a life so far. I have given the 7 wonders each its own name.

Liza-Janine the Sister for all
Valerie-Charlott the peace maker and finder of the lost souls
Timothy-Maximilian the dreamer describing new ways
Benny the center of all
Quentin-Ilias the thinker striving for perfection
Isaiah-Quin the convincing open minded
Flora-Sophie the princess of hearts

Growing up in confused times where mother and father were on their own search as of where their own life should drive them. My father raised in a catholic 5 kids strong hostile environment with  each of them searching who is the better and stronger person. My mother being the single child of WWII survivors who was given all opportunities to do want she really wanted. Yes she might disagree with these terms but I knew and loved her father. He has seen a lot and has put his dreams aside to make so much happen. Well I believe I have learned more about freedom and dreams from my grandfather then from my own parents. My mother and father couldn't have been grown up much different to each other as they have. They though seem to have defined their median and lived it at best they could in which I took the one or other thought with me on my journey.

I remember several moments of mine in which I dreamed and formed my own world. The wish of being an astronaut because it is cool to discover things that others can't see or do not know how to do. The dream of removing hostility from Our World by providing each living creature the space, the food, the water on Our Earth they own by birth. The wish to travel the world and be a part of Our World learning what I do not know and educating the others as what they want to learn. Discover the undiscovered and share with dance and music.

Moving from the US to Germany in young years have formed me greatly as it gave me the time with my grandfather I otherwise would not have had. He lived next to his workplace and when my sister and I ran up the hill and got again caught by the stinging nettle we ran to his lab window and asked for help. He always responded to put water on it which was the worst idea ever. So what is to learn about this, first of all to say he would never put water on the stings but he gave us the opportunity to discover as what happens and then learn by doing. Yes it is something like to ask your kid to touch the hot stove and then let them decide if it was a good idea. Multiple times my grandfather encouraged me to do things and figure out. He was not the demanding type except he found it a necessary craft to learn to survive. Distinction in his message as example as I explained that I want to be out in the world and do things on my own. His reply, when you really want to live on your own and form a family be aware that you have the money for soap and tooth paste. Well that was honestly not my first thought but it gave me to understand the cross-function of things regardless how minor it seemed. To think things thru step by step and not to be afraid. Well I was a bad student at one time feeling encapsulated in a system of day in day out. By enforcing my laziness to the ridiculousness I have been then given an opportunity to go to another school which was the next milestone in my life. All of the sudden I was someone. Someone new, odd and now with kids exercising the first steps of independence. Some with success and some others struggling. The point to break out and enjoy the life to become a grown up man. Back in the mode of discovering and learning how it feels. Some stupid and disrespectful stuff I have done in that time. It showed me though who I am and what I really wanted. The dreams and wishes from the earlier time haven't changed. I never wanted to be a millionaire or such. I wanted a family, discover and share with dance and music. Which brings me to the point of explaining dance and music. My music teacher once said all tones are music, so words are music. That was it! Words, speaking and engaging with people and discover within the conversation. So what does dance then mean? In my interpretation it is the movement of the body in the rhythm of your surrounding music. Dancing thru the world with the music created. Conversation at any place, discovering the simple and learning the importance of the little details to over come. Am I a dreamer, hell no! I am a realist but with the knowledge that any progression has its start with a dream.